I have moments in life, random moments, when I just catch a
glimpse of something that I know will be a memory that will stay with me for
the rest of my life ( I know it as soon as I experience it). These are little things, like the look on my daughters
face when I disappointed her because I didn’t read her a book, a glimpse of a
deer tail jumping into the woods this morning, looking at the moonlight shining
off of a white fence as our car drove by the few minutes before pulling into
the ER to deliver my son, my father smiling widely across the table at a restaurant, noticing a leaf bug (one of
those really cool looking leaf look alikes) under my car- one bright green
color on a dark and dreary pavement; painting over a picture my sister drew for me and regretting it immediately; making out to a full Scorpions Album (this
moment was a little longer than a “glimpse”). These little moments are imprinted into my
mind and continue coming back to me, days, weeks, months, years after they
happened. These moments are a mix of
failures, regrets, happiness, and simple observation. Somehow with all the chaos of life, these are
the moments that come back to me when I lay there at night thinking, these are
the things that are in or on my mind when I remind myself to be grateful, and somehow
all the things that pissed me off this week or last month are not part of them.
I often wonder why is it that it was
this specific event that I remembered, why not the many others I try to
remember but can’t. I guess that these are the little glimpses that shape who I
am and my choices or should I say my choices shape the glimpses of who I am…chicken
or the egg?
P.S. Sorry all, just having PMS…very sensitive today.
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